There is a lot of propaganda about Mormonism out there – positive and negative, praise and lies, and everyone seems to have an ulterior motive. 

Few churches are as vilified and ridiculed as the Mormon church; at the same time, it is extremely successful – obviously, its members find something good in it. 

It takes a former insider to cut through all the propaganda: Someone who has left the church (and thus can talk about its dark sides), and who has been away long enough that he is no longer bitter about it – so he can explain its attraction for some 13 million members worldwide. 

Eric T. Hansen was a Mormon missionary for two years in Germany and was a dedicated believer for much of his life. Then, at thirty, his disillusionment had grown so much that he had to leave. It was the hardest thing he ever did, and now, many years later, he still knows that leaving was the right decision, but he also sees all the good things he had to leave behind. 

Eric T. Hansen on his autobiographical expose of the Mormon church, “Losing My Religion:”

“When I lost my faith, a vast sense of loss descended upon me and everything good and beautiful about this life on earth – God watching over us, the promise that we will return to him – all that was gone. And I was left to search for another reason to live.

When I left the church, I didn’t want to talk about it, fearing perhaps that my old friends in the church and family would talk me out of it. As the years went by and I forged a life outside the church, I could compare life outside with life inside, and I kept revisiting the concept of Mormonism and I grew to admire it as a religious philosophy.

It is unique among churches – for its sheer Americanness, for the radicalism of its theology (man can become God, for example, or the unique Mormon interpretation of the story of the Garden of Eden) and more.” 

Eric T. Hansen, an American writer living in Berlin, (“Gracian’s Art of Worldly Wisdom,” “Do Cats Have Souls?”) explains the radicalism and genius of the Mormon church, but also tells how he lost his faith and what he gained instead. 

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“The author, in limpid prose, fleshes out a fascinatingly complex religion, which he convincingly argues is the most American of spiritual traditions.” 

–Kirkus Reviews

“A candid and thoughtful reflection on faith, reason, and art.”

– Kirkus Reviews 

“Hansen’s prose vividly depicts the struggles of his life-altering personal journey. Those interested in the intersection of religion and personal choice will find his memoir both forthright and insightful.” 

– BlueInk Review

“Irreverent and entertaining … sometimes funny, sometimes serious … The book’s observations on faith and doubt are compelling.” 

– Foreword Reviews